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oke only a few more days to 2012,,
seriously it scare me!
but the thing is, just face it with smile
everything is gonna be okay weyh!
oke 2011 seriously has taught me about a real life
everything will be okay if we just believe in ourself
thank for those people who always be by my side
n i just cant believe that im gonna be seventeen
it just like a magic!
i still remember the first day i came to Integomb
n Integomb teach me a lot of things!
next year im gonna be
SENIOR
SPM CANDIDATE
n
PKR the only thing that most i dont want


yes i admit yang when i was f4, aku cepat give up
in everything!
especially in basket n +math
i know it not good but i just,, i dont know!
n aku memg cepat gile nanges dis year!
n now i believe that im gonna sit for SPM
n of cos the word 'give up' should be remove!

im PKR, but i cannot bear the responsibilit!
i was extremely heavy!
why was me!
i dont want it!
im not the one who can take that responsibility!
n bile haiqal say that,
"nisa serious siket!"
" nisa ko kene r jadi camne camtu.."
bile dy cakap camtu seriously semangat aku become less n less
im guilty!
i dont want it!
im not the one who likes challenges
im not the one who persevere
i cant take it!
but bende da jadi n aku terpakse take that responsibility
n im really scared to face 2012..
but i know i have my friends that always be by my side!
love ya!
n i will try my best to be a brave nisa!
n i believe in ALLAH..
always put ALLAH no1 in your heart n everything is gonna be okay!

form 4 is tough but form gonna be tougher

thanks to all of them,,

guys sorry for being suck n i realy appreciate all of u,,

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oke, here some post about patience,,
urm, kalau korang mara msti korang ngamuk2 kan??
samela ngan aku
but why not we try to make the ngamuk2 less?
urm, oku xtau nape ak post bnde ne,,
but dis school holiday seriously i learnt so many things about this ngamuk2..
n pasal gado2 yang xrasional..
urm, kalau kte mara2 ngan org laen nape kite nak sampai gado2?
sampai nak jerit2?
sampai nak pukul2?
perlu ke?
no of cos not kan?
why not kite bertolak ansur ngan orang yg kte mara tu?
xrugi pon kalau kite mengalah ok,,
nape certain of us xnak mengalah?
yes i know why!
EGO!
this is de most stupid thing i heard!
nape? rase maruah tercabar?
urm, sometimes klau ade orang tego kite, kite xnak dengar advice die,,
why?
n sometimes kte sanggup berdendam ngan die even kadang2 memg da terang benderang its was ur fault!
npe? malu? maruah tercabar? EGO!
urm,, tau x camne nk hilangkan mara?
ISTIGHFAR.
seriously kalau korang nga mara2 then korang istighfar, srious korang akan cool gile!
it simple!
aku da pna try da,, serious berkesan!
but time 1st time aku try tu afte aku da abes kamus carut aku r tapi,,
its bad oke!
urm, oke i know that im not deserve to talk about this sebab aku ne pon x bape reti nk control mara aku sangat,,
but i do love to share something good with others,,
urm, istighfar oke,,
simple!
tau x nape certain orang yg da kawen asyik gado2?

1. takde tolak ansur
2. ade EGO yang sgt tinggi!

kan orang cakap gado tu la kemanisan rumah tangga!
oke bagi aku it absolutely not!
sebab bagi aku kalau da kawen then gado2 baek xpayah nak kawen!
n especially for those yang berlakon baik, penyayang, penyabar, caring n pape je before dorang kawen,, n tibe2 afte kawen perangai sume tukar cam banduan penjara tu,, better korang xpayah nak kawen la!
korang ne menyusahkan orang laen je tau x!
sory to say la tapi from wat i see lelaki selalunye camne,,
but i admit yang pompuan pon 2 x 5 je en,,
so for those yang nak kawen tu,, mantap2kanla iman korang,,
for what?
for ur family future oke..
oke for those yang ade perangai2 baran tu, buangla cepat,,
xde manuasie yang kat dunie ne bole idop bahagia aman damai ngan orang baran,,
n of cos i hate those person yang ade perangai baran ne!
sory to say but i really hate baran2 ne!
orang baran ne keje nak menyalahkan orang laen n xpna nak ngaku salah die.
EGO.
hurm,, this post quite long..
memamg long pon,,
but nta xtau nape aku post..
nak express stress kot..
oke sory for being emo,,
but seriouasly kalu mara just istighfar oke?
n jangan jadi baran,,
takkan bahagie orang baran ne..

sory for being emo this night

just wanna get rid of stress

:(

=(

okey skola da nak bukak!

only a few more days huh,,

and it was seriously scare me!

okey from day to day memang aku mken bersemangat waja gilegile

nak sit for the SPM,, 

but,,

oh no! self confidence makin berkurang from day to day jugal weyh!!

serious cuak!

especially addmath,, i have zero confidence for add math oke..

even the simplest calculation!

ramai orang cakap,,

" bagi aku chapter function is the simplest"

" approximate paling senang la"

or pape je en,,

dorang ade chapter yang bg dorang is simplest for them,,

tapi aku stu pon takde weyh!

bagi aku addmath susah gile!

n aku xde confidence langsung tok addmath oke..

yes, ramai orang cakap do a lot of exercise

tapi it looks like doesn't give any effect kat aku,,

BECAUSE I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS!

serious takut!

i want the 9A+!

but how bout my add math?

hurm,, 

seriously self confidence aku cam it going to zero maybe?

the thing is,,

i don't know oke

additional mathematics =(

yes , i don't know what to said

oh add math. :'(

maturity

" nisa, ko ne cam budakbudak la"

" nisa ko ne perangai cam budak 7 thun la"

" nisa, ko ne xmatang langsungla"

" angah ne xmacam budak form4 la angah" by my mom

" nisa sumpa perangai cam budak kecik dowh"

" nisa perangai xpena brubah,, still cam budak2 lagi"

" kakak ne cam budakbudak la kak"

yes all these above adalah katekate drpda kwan2 dan fmily saye,,

at first, i just ignore all of it,, but when i read one of my bf's blog, i realise that,, 

NISA! YOU NEED TO BE MATURE OK!

yes only 18 days,, n i will b form 5 student! spm candidate!

n of cos i need to be mature isn't?

urm, i have to learn to live without any helper oke..

sbab xsure lagi kwan2 kite yg kite ade sekarang akan still be with us at d future right?

it gonna be so tough to live in dat life,, 

but i have to work on it right?

stop dependent on others okay nisa!!

you have to find your own way nisa,,

sebab xsure lg they will always be with u forever okay nisa,,

nisagonisa!

ALLAH always there for you..

trust HIM!

p/s congrats to maria elena n asfirdaus on their engagement! i pray the best for both of u,,

:)

assalamualaikum.

hello i just wanna share sometng wit u guys,,

last monday ari 2 i just came back from cameron,,

when im on my way,, i heard lagu hey mickey,,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hs3Jrf0UNzo&feature=related

hurm, act mood aku time tu xbape stable sgt pon,,

but,, after i heard dat song, automatically i smile!

a really2 big smile!

i remember when i was dancing at my school when im form1 n form2

seriously it was awesome!

even act aku ne KAYU, means xreti menari n buruk pon kalau menari!

tp xkesah asalkan aku hepy en

n on dat time jugak, my tear drops on my tshirt!

sriously, sumpa sdeh!

it only 1 year left!

n after dat i will say bye bye to integomb!

it was de hardest word to say okee!

sriously i learnt so many things there!

friendship, sacrifice, suffering, family n life,,

yeah it were a great knowledge!

hurm, but wat ever it is,, life must b continued right??

it was really hard to survive out there,,

no prefect yg nk control my discipline even i hate it! but i admit, it good for me act..

no BUDI yg nak control my association,,

no teacher yg nak tegur2,,

no friends yg always there for me,,

n yg pnting,, NO FUN!
seriously aku rse sronok kat skola je..

even sometimes bagi aku keje rumah hjau 2 memenatkan n seriously i feel dat im not able to assume the responsibility as PKR,, im stupid + useless PKR act!

hurm, thats all! 

assalamualaikum.

p/s to all members of the greenhouse, seriously i am so sorry for that day oke,,n i will try my best for the next time,, n to Amirul Haiqal,, tq for such a great advice! u r such a great leader but, sian ko sbab dapat such a stupid assistant!

????

haha aku pon xtau nape ari ne nak ckp bnyk2,,
yes maybe dis is one of my way to calm n make myself happy n no more stress maybe,,
but wat im going to tell you is,,
hurm i don know how to turn on my life's light,,
xpham??
haha xyah pham..
i feel like i lost my spirit to get wat i want..
it was because i feel like im dying when i see my mom crying n i don know how to calm her,,
i feel like there is no point to live,,
if u ask me wat i want in my life, i will answer it like this:

1. i want a happy family
2. i want a great friend
3. i want a flying colour spm slip
4. i want to fly somewhere
5. i want a great job
6. i want a husband
7. i want a kids

but the 1, 6 n 7 surely or maybe i cant get it,,
i dont believe in marriage
i love it but i hate it okee
i have a really great mom but it not same like 'him'
i hate 'him'
i really2 hate 'him'
he make my mom suffer!
he make my brothers live in fear!
he make me trouble n i hate 'him'!

if you want the people respect you, you have to respect the people first!
it hard for me to forgive him :(

grateful

hurm, i just wanna say dat,, THANK YOU ALLAH coz giving me such a great bestfriends!
n tu you, thank you so much buddy,,
n do remember me always oke!